Sunday 22 June 2014

He keeps looking at me

like he is confused somehow

I used to call him the devil. I believed he was.

Now… I don’t know what to think of him. He hasn’t hurt me since I got here

He just keeps watching. Maybe he’s wondering what to think of me. Wondering what I’m going to do.

I’m not a proxy. I don't think of myself as one anyway. I am not doing anything for his sake but I do want to stay here for now and make sure that Fell and Hart are okay. That's why I'm going on the next mission. 

Fell has been training me along with Hart. She pushes me a lot harder but I’d rather deal with that than be worried that she's going to drink herself to death. She’s even started hanging out with me. We have been watching My Little Pony together.

Aside from training, Hart has been teaching me how to make things by melting perler beads together. He says that I should take the time to develop some more hobbies while I can. I didn’t really have much opportunity for that when I was with Father Brien and the others, though I was able to play chess every now and then.

Anyway, we made this

 

It’s Rainbow Dash. I wanted to do something that I thought Fell might like and she had said that Rainbow Dash is her favorite pony. She smiled and thanked us for it, but her eyes looked sad

She may be better than she was, but I know that something isn’t right. Stitch knows it too. She still hasn’t talked to me or Hart except to apologize

Maybe it’s weird for me to be worried about her, but, what happened really shattered my perception of everything being so clear cut. The ones I trusted tried to kill me while the ones I thought of as enemies saved my life.